My sincere condolences go out to MO and shmerson on the loss of precious little Nadav.  No parents should have to live though this hell, and I'm sorry that you are.

Taking one for the team

Facebook is flooded with pregnant people. I mean, MORE crowded than usual. And it's been pissing me off more than usual too. It took a while, but I finally figured it out. All those smug, taking it for granted bitches owe me one big time, and the least they could do is be sensitive.

You see, one in every 5 pregnancies ends badly. That means, for every dead baby and grieving mother there are 4 healthy happy babies in the world whose mothers have no idea how lucky they are. I'm not asking for money or thanks, all I ask is that you don't post every little kick and craving. After all, I took 4 for the team and because of me 16 little lives are free from the stats.

Emissary

In the opening double episode of Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, Commander Sisko comes into contact with a race of aliens who exist outside of linear time (the Bajorans consider them prophets).  They perceive humanity to be primitive and even violent and cruel at first.  Cmdr. Sisko enters into a dialogue with the "Prophets" on the nature of linear time and humanity.  How we live on in the hearts and memories of those who love us, how our past helps us understand and deal with our future.  The virtue of not knowing how things end up, because it wouldn't be worth experiencing otherwise.  And after each section of dialogue, they take him back to the scene of his wife's death at Wolf 359 and argue "but you live here".  He says humanity is not violent, and they show him dwelling on this point.  He says the mystery is half the adventure, and they show him dwelling on this point.  The eventual conclusion is that he dwells on that terrible time in his life, "lives there", because it was the one thing his past did not prepare him for, or give him insight into how to deal with.  So, while his linear nature pressed forward (what choice did it have?), his heart was left to dwell in that moment, having no idea how to press onward.  In the end, the "Prophets" share some unknown revelation with him, which helps him to move on with living his life in the present instead of the past and the show marches merrily onward.

So often, I find myself feeling like Cmdr. Sisko... Suck living in a moment of extreme pain, not because I enjoy it or the torture that comes with it, but because I have no idea how to move forward from it. Too bad the all knowing entity I worship isn't a big fan of magical fixes.